Last month I wrote this poem about my self-date intentions. I have this list of fun and interesting things I've been wanting to try/do for the longest time, BUT I've been waiting for the right person to do them with.
Just waiting... and waiting... and umm, yea more waiting!
Then I had this epiphany like ummm, why not put your alone time to good use and start taking yourself out on these amazing adventures?!!! So that's exactly what I am doing. I schedule time on my agenda, for these self-dates. I get dolled up, put on my smell-good potion (*shameless plug: I make my own, which you can buy here!), some sexy panties, and then I enjoy the hell out of my own company!
Since I journal about pretty much everything, it occurred to me to write about this journey too. I have also decided to take a mini man hiatus coincidentally, lol, shifting my focus from a romantic mate, to romancing myself for a change (hell that way, I'm guaranteed a boss time!).
So, this is my experience dating myself, part of my self-love journey, which, of course is always ongoing.
Here goes nothing...
Date 1: 7 April 2018 - Saturday
I'm back-tracking a little bit. This is from my journal the day after my first official date:
Yesterday was my first scheduled self-date. It wasn't what I expected and part of me wants to say it wasn't anything special. But that's not true.
I got the chance to disconnect from the world a bit and truly connect to/with me. I didn't do anything crazy or even out of the norm, which is why I originally wanted to discount or diminish its specialness. I just chilled. I took myself to this new food spot, read a new book which is fricking MAGIC! And I went to get dessert. I also rocked my world before knocking out! Lol. Sooooo, good times, good vibes. And now today I feel good. Tuning into me. That is the mantra.
Date 2: 26 May 2018 - Saturday
What can I say about last night?
I felt like such a diva! A sex goddess! I have been tapping into my sacral power, like whoa, because I just felt hot all over!
Sooo, I went to a Sip & Paint event for the first time. Checking that off the list!
The painting was called Tribal Queen. And the instructor and the group of ladies attending the class, kept remarking on how I could be the painting's model. They kept telling me how beautiful I am and how much I resembled the piece of art. Of course that made me feel even more of a bad ass lol. And I could totally see myself in her. She is me and I am she.
So, I worked extra hard on bringing her beauty to life and I have to say, I'm really proud of my handiwork! This was my first time painting since like elementary school. But I am an artist through and through. I just might have to dabble more into the realm of visual arts. I had so much fun!
I was totally in a vibe, last night, sipping on some wine (rosé), which I continued when I returned home. Listening to the storm rage off and on outside my window. Then I decided to read some of my old erotica passages I had written many, MANY moons ago (erotic blog coming soon) - talk about HOT AND BOTHERED! Geeeeesh! So, the sucky thing about self-dating is the no sex part. Well no sex with anyone else. I indulge in plenty of solo sex. Which is just what I did last night! Went to sleep with a smile on my face!
But yea, it does get hard (pun intended) not having a partner to share in coitus bliss. One day, one day. Lawwwd, one day! Lol
So, besides the sexually frustrating part, my date was AWESOME! I discovered a new talent. I felt empowered, self-affirmed and sexy AF!
I'm totally looking forward to date #3 with me!