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Last year I chronicled a new aspect of my self-love journey that included consciously and intentionally dating myself (exclusively for a short period of time). I kind of slacked off in that regard towards the latter half of the year though I did continue self-dating here and there.
For 2019, I put it on my vision board to commit to at least ONE self-date activity of the month. And last Thursday, I honored the commitment for the month of January. Here are some of my reflections from that venture...
(I wrote this in my journal the next day following my self-date)
Last night I had my first self-date of the new year. It was awesoooome! Free food and alcohol, what more can you ask for?! Plus there was a musician for additional entertainment, some Saxman Extraordinaire (oolala).
But I'm not even gonna lie, the last thing I wanted to do yesterday was to go on any date, not with myself or with anybody. It was rainy, and I felt so moody. I just wanted to stay in the house. But I knew if I didn't go, I would be mad at myself. As I started halfheartedly going through my closet for an outfit, I came across this ruffled off the shoulder black dress that I never wore. I put it on to see how it looked and I immediately grinned at myself in the mirror. That's when I made up my mind to go. You deserve this, I told myself. Go out, look good, have fun! So, that's what I did lol
I even had a whole seating area to myself. Later a lady came over and asked me if I was alone and if I wanted to join her and some other strangers ("since none of us here know one another," she said). I was like, nah I'm good. And continued to enjoy my solo seating in the corner, sipping sangria, listening to the sounds of the sax, and occasionally watching the news on the TV screen on the wall across from me. It was a nice, pleasant enjoyable evening. Sweet, comfortable atmosphere, good music, even better food, and the best company...ME!